On Living Through a Crisis of Faith
When you live through a major crisis of faith, everything changes.
You feel fearful when you once had peace.
You experience anger, bitterness, and ostracism when you once felt the security that comes from “knowing.”
You feel like running. You feel like staying. You wish you had never asked the question. You thank God you had the courage to dig deeper. You long to share everything you’ve learned. You know you better keep your mouth shut.
Let’s not lie: it’s a difficult and painful process.
Eventually, though, something strange happens. You begin to put the pieces back together.
The picture looks different, but the frame is the same.
You find beauty in symbolism, where before you knew only literalism. You experience empathy, where before you felt only judgment. You learn openness and grace, where before you were closed and hard-hearted.
You forgive easier. You laugh more. You see truth everywhere.
It’s a difficult and painful process, but it’s worth it. It’s worth it.